I found out I was pregnate in September of 2011. I wasn't quite sure what or how to feel. I already had three children at home. Sam was 6, Sophie was 4, and James had just turned 1 in July. My husband had left me in May. My life was a mess. Obviously this was an unplanned pregnancy.  I immediately chose adoption. I made a plan and was prepared to follow through with it.

 To give alittle back story. I had met John through a mutual friend. He was charming, handsome, and well spoken. Most importantly he made me feel like I was beautiful. However our relationship was doomed from the beginning. He was much much older than I and had already raised his children he didn't want to start all over again. Eventually he met another woman his own age and we parted ways.  The middle of September I foundout I was pregnate. I was shocked.

After telling my father that I was pregnate he presented me with information of a caseworker at the Nebraska Children's home. Soon after that I met with Bobbi and started my journey through adoption.

We met biweekly somtimes monthly. She taught me about